Showing posts with label AvelCain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label AvelCain. Show all posts

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

AvelCain - 嘘つき (Usotsuki)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: AvelCain
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 嘘つき
Lie

嗚呼
ユビキリゲンマンウソツイタラ
ハリセンボンノマスユビキッタ

指切った
貴方へ誓う
本当に本当に好き
指切った
私の気持ち
嘘じゃない

『ねぇ、信じてくれますか?』

所詮遊び相手
でも恋に焦がれ
諦められないから

指切った
貴方へ捧ぐ
言葉では表せなくて
指切った
私の愛を
感じてくれるなら
誰よりも
貴方の事を
誰よりも
貴方の為に
左手小指を落とす
思い切り

『ねぇ、愛のかたちです。』

Romaji: Usotsuki
Lie

aa
YUBIKIRI GENMAN USOTSUITARA
HARISENBON NOMASU YUBI KITTA

Lie

yubi kitta
anata e chikau
hontou ni hontou ni suki
yubi kitta
watashi no kimochi
uso janai

"nee, shinjite kuremasu ka?"

Lie

shosen asobi aite
demo koi ni kogare
akiramerarenai kara

yubi kitta
anata e sasagu
kotoba de wa arawasenakute
yubi kitta
watashi no ai o
kanjite kureru nara
dare yori mo
anata no koto o
dare yori mo
anata no tame ni
hidarite koyubi o otosu
omoikiri

"nee, ai no katachi desu."

English: Liar
Lie

Ah
FINGER CUT-OFF, TEN THOUSAND FIST-PUNCHINGS
WHOEVER LIES HAS TO SWALLOW THOUSAND NEEDLES[1]

Finger cut-off
I swear to you
I truly truly like you
Finger cut-off
My feelings
Are not lies

"Hey, do you believe me?"

We're playmates after all
But I fell in love
Because I can't give you up

Finger cut-off
Dedicated to you
Inexpressible with words
Finger cut-off
If you can feel
My love
More than anyone else
You
More than anyone else
For you
I'll leave behind my left pinky
Despairingly[2]

"Hey, it's the shape of love."
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Translation notes:
[1] These two lines written in caps lock is a set phrase said mainly by children when they make a pinky promise. It's basically said as a vow to not break a promise or otherwise there will be a punishment. I used the translation found in Wikipedia.
[2] Translated from 思い切り(omoikiri). This word can be translated in various ways, which made it quite difficult for me. It can have a positive meaning like "with all one's might/heart's content" or a more negative meaning like "resignation". I took it as the negative meaning since Karma writes about leaving behind his left pinky (I'm not sure why the left pinky though since it's usually the right hand that is used in pinky swear), and in Japan back then the one who broke a promise would have to cut off their finger. However, the translation "resignation" didn't seem to fit well with the lyrics so I came up with the translation "despairingly", which I think was meant in this context and can still hold some of the same meaning.

AvelCain - 操り人形 (Ayatsuri ningyou)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 操り人形
『とある少女の物語です。
自分の事を嫌いました。』

醜い醜い醜い醜い
嗚呼 溜め息つく

『ある日少女は悩むのです。
自分の事を責めました。』

身憎い身憎い身憎い身憎い
嗚呼 鏡を割る

『ある日少女は気付くのです。
あの子よりも劣ってると。』

見難い見難い見難い見難い
嗚呼 涙が出る

あの子もあの子も可愛くて
あの子もあの子も笑ってる
あの子にあの子に嫉妬して

『お人形さんにして貰いました。』

可憐に踊る私だけ見て
ほら一番素敵
作り笑顔も上手になって
まだ大丈夫だから

『ある日人形は悩むのです。
自分の事を恨みました。』

苦しい苦しい苦しい苦しい
嗚呼 糸が絡む

『ある日人形は気付くのです。
檻の中で踊ってると。』

狂死い狂死い狂死い狂死い
嗚呼 首を吊る

あいつがあいつが悪いから
あいつがあいつが許せない
あいつにあいつに騙されて

『お人形さんは悲劇演じました。』

自由に踊る私夢見て
ほら糸を切って
踊れない戻れない用は無い
もう私はごみの様に捨てられる

Romaji: Ayatsuri ningyou
"toaru shoujo no monogatari desu.
jibun no koto o kiraimashita."

minikui minikui minikui minikui
aa  tameiki tsuku

"aru hi shoujo wa nayamu no desu.
jibun no koto o sememashita."

minikui minikui minikui minikui
aa  kagami o waru

"aru hi shoujo wa kidzuku no desu.
ano ko yori mo ototteru to."

minikui minikui minikui minikui
aa  namida ga deru

ano ko mo ano ko mo kawaikute
ano ko mo ano ko mo waratteru
ano ko ni ano ko ni shitto shite

"oningyou san ni shite moraimashita."

karen ni odoru watashi dake mite
hora ichiban suteki
tsukuri egao mo jouzu ni natte
mada daijoubu dakara

"aru hi DORU wa nayamu no desu.
jibun no koto o uramimashita."

kurushii kurushii kurushii kurushii
aa  ito ga karamu

"aru hi DORU wa kidzuku no desu.
ori no naka de odotteru to."

kurushii kurushii kurushii kurushii
aa  kubi o tsuru

aitsu ga aitsu ga warui kara
aitsu ga aitsu ga yurusenai
aitsu ni aitsu ni damasarete

"oningyou san wa higeki enjimashita."

jiyuu ni odoru watashi yume mite
hora ito o kitte
odorenai modorenai you wa nai
mou watashi wa gomi no you ni suterareru


NOTES:
人形/ningyou -> ドル/DORU (doll)


English: Marionette
"This is a story of a girl.
She hated herself."

Ugly ugly ugly ugly
Ah, breath a sigh

"One day the girl was troubled.
She blamed herself."

Self-hatred self-hatred self-hatred self-hatred
Ah, break the mirror

"One day the girl realized something.
That she was lesser than that girl."

Unclear unclear unclear unclear
Ah, tears are pouring

Each and every girl is cute
Each and every girl is laughing
I became jealous of each and every girl

"She was turned into a doll."

Look at me only dancing in sweetness
See, I'm the loveliest
My forced smiles also become better
Because I'm still alright

"One day the doll was troubled.
She resented herself."

Painful painful painful painful
Ah, the strings entwine

"One day the doll realized something.
That she was dancing in a cage."

Mad death mad death mad death mad death
Ah, hang myself

Since he and he only is at fault
He and he only cannot be forgiven
I was tricked by him and him only

"The doll played a tragedy."

Dream of me dancing freely
Here, cut the strings
I can't dance, I can't go back, I have no task
Before long, I'll be thrown away like garbage

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

AvelCain - 鋏 (Hasami)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: hiphopvomit

Kanji: 鋏
密室は残酷
対角線を繋ぐ
痛みと引き換え
試される

身体は拘束
冷たい床を舐める
致死量を満たす
血塗れる

切れた?切れた?よくできました
『動揺』

『絶望』

『対象』

『選択』

『切断』

『代償』

Romaji: Hasami
"douyou" "zetsubou" "taishou" "sentaku" "setsudan" "daishou"

"douyou" "zetsubou" "taishou" "sentaku" "setsudan" "daishou"

misshitsu wa zankoku
taikakusen o tsunagu
itami to hikikae
tamesareru

kireta kireta kireta kireta kireta ki

karada wa kousoku
tsumetai yuka o nameru
chishiryou o mitasu
chimamireru

kireta kireta kireta kireta kireta ki

kireta? kireta? yoku dekimashita
"douyou"
kireta? kireta? yoku dekimashita
"zetsubou"

kireta? kireta? yoku dekimashita
"taishou"
kireta? kireta? yoku dekimashita
"sentaku"
kireta? kireta? yoku dekimashita
"setsudan"
kireta? kireta? yoku dekimashita
"daishou"

English: Scissors
In the locked room is cruelty
Connecting diagonal lines
Conversion with pain
It will be tested

Body is restrained
Licking the cold floor
Fulfilling the lethal dose
Smearing with blood

Is it cut? Is it cut? Very well done
"Agitation"

"Despair"

"Subject"

"Selection"

"Severance"

"Compensation"
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Note:
I translated in the same format as the original kanji (where not all repeated lines are written out).

AvelCain - 月蝕 (Gesshoku)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 月蝕
見上げた夜空に鈍く儚く
欠けた光をゆっくりとなぞった

千切れた手首の滴る赤に
隠した痛みが溢れて止まらない

触れる程に
崩れてしまう
それでも貴方
忘れられない

孤独翳る月蝕重ねた傷に泣く
振り向いて
私は此処だよ
ほら心も身体も引き摺る思い出も粉々に今宵血りばめて
お別れ

貴方が望む
明日にはきっと
私はいない
せめて眠らせて

月明かりが優しく私を照らすけど
あの頃のように戻れない
貴方を知らなければ
私がいなければ
良かったの?
うまく言えないよ
さよなら
ごめんね
私を
殺して

Romaji: Gesshoku
miageta yozora ni nibuku hakanaku
kaketa hikari o yukkuri to nazotta

chigireta tekubi no shitataru aka ni
kakushita itami ga afurete tomaranai

fureru hodo ni
kuzurete shimau
sore demo anata
wasurerarenai

kodoku kageru gesshoku kasaneta kizu ni naku
furimuite
watashi wa koko da yo
hora kokoro mo karada mo hikizuru omoide mo konagona ni koyoi chiribamete
owakare

anata ga nozomu
asu ni wa kitto
watashi wa inai
semete nemurasete

tsukiakari ga yasashiku watashi o terasu kedo
ano koro no you ni modorenai
anata o shiranakereba
watashi ga inakereba
yokatta no?
umaku ienai yo
sayonara
gomen ne
watashi o
koroshite

English: Lunar Eclipse
Dimly and transiently in the night sky I looked up at
I slowly traced the dwindling light

In the dripping blood from my torn wrist
The hidden pain doesn't stop overflowing

It falls apart
Enough for me to feel
Even so, I will not
Forget you

I cry at the lonely obscuring lunar eclipse, and my piled up wounds
Turn this way
I'm right here
Look, our hearts, our bodies, and our trailing memories are studded[1] in pieces tonight
Farewell

The tomorrow
That you wish for, surely
I'll be gone
At least let me sleep

The moonlight gently illuminates me
But I can't go back to those days
If I had not known you
If I had not existed
Would things have been better?
I can't express it very well
Goodbye
I'm sorry
Please
Kill me
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Translation Notes:
[1] Karma uses wordplay again and writes the word with the kanji for blood "血"(chi).

Monday, July 25, 2016

AvelCain - PSYCHO-サイコ-

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: PSYCHO-サイコ-
『ただいま』

PSYCHOPASS

ゆらりゆらりゆらりゆらゆら
赤い糸を見つけた

髪を切った事も
朝起きた時間も
女の子の日も
全部知ってる

ねぇどうしてぼくは
ねぇこんなにきみを
ねぇすきなんだろう
ずっと考えてる

ぐるりぐるりぐるりぐるぐる
赤い糸で離れられない
ぐさりぐさりぐさりぐさぐさ
きみの色が滲んだ

愛しくて辛いよ
堪らなく辛いよ
肌身離さないよ
一緒に居ようね

あぁぼくがきみを
あぁ幸せにする
あぁだってきみには
ぼくしか似合わない

ぼくを見つめてる
瞳そのままで
きみを切り取って
愛してる
ぼくだけのきみ
糸の先冷たい

Romaji: PSYCHO-SAIKO-
"nee, iru n'deshou? nee?"
"tadaima"

PSYCHOPASS

yurari yurari yurari yurayura
akai ito o mitsuketa

kami o kitta koto mo
asa okita jikan mo
onnanoko no hi mo
zenbu shitteru

nee doushite boku wa
nee konna ni kimi o
nee suki nan darou
zutto kangaeteru

"aishiteru"

gururi gururi gururi guruguru
akai ito de hanarerarenai
gusari gusari gusari gusagusa
kimi no iro ga nijinda

itoshikute tsurai yo
tamaranaku tsurai yo
hadami hanasanai yo
issho ni iyou ne

aa boku ga kimi o
aa shiawase ni suru
aa datte kimi ni wa
boku shika niawanai

boku o mitsumeteru
hitomi sono mama de
kimi o kiritotte
aishiteru
boku dake no kimi
ito no saki tsumetai


NOTES:
The lines in blue were done by ear.

English: PSYCHO
("Hey, I know you're there. Hey?")
"I'm back"

PSYCHOPASS

Swaying and swaying, swaying slowly
I found the red string

When you've cut your hair
When you wake up in the morning
When you're on your period[1]
I know everything

Hey, why am I
Hey, so in love
Hey, with you
I've always been thinking

("I love you")

Round and round, turning round and round
With this red string you can't go away
Stabbing and stabbing, stabbing deeply
Your color bleeds

You're so lovely it's painful
It's so unbearably painful
I won't let go of your body
Let's be together

Ah, I will
Ah, make you happy
Ah, after all I am
The only one fit for you

You're gazing at me
With your eyes fixed
I'll cut you off
I love you
You're mine only
The end of the string is cold
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Translation notes:
Spoken phrases that were not included in the original lyrics are placed in parentheses.
[1] In this line karma writes about 女の子の日(onnanoko no hi), which literally means "girl's day". It's an indirect way of saying a girl's "period".

AvelCain - 彩虜-あやとり- (Ayatori)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 彩虜-あやとり-
子供の頃に独り遊んだ
紐を結び あやとり

『やめて痛いよ。』
『言う事聞くよ。』
『お願い許して。』
『パパ、ママ…』

赤い彩りを夢中で引き摺り出してからは俯いたままの二人が居て

腸を結び あやとり
今までで一番上手に出来たから
『パパ、ママ、褒めて下さい。』

痣を隠した
傷も隠した
二人は土に隠した

後ろめたい過去隠して来た日々
頬を伝うこの想いに帰る場所は無くて

あれからどれだけ探しても見つからない
一度は愛されたい
叶わない夢の中
細い指に絡む死臭
噎せ返る度繰り返す
『ごめんなさい。』

Romaji: Ayatori
kodomo no koro ni hitori asonda
himo o musubi  ayatori

"yamete itai yo."
"iu koto kiku yo."
"onegai yurushite."
"PAPA, MAMA..."

akai irodori o muchuu de hikizuri dashite kara wa
  utsumuita mama no futari ga ite

harawata o musubi  ayatori
ima made de ichiban jouzu ni dekita kara
"PAPA, MAMA, homete kudasai."

aza o kakushita
kizu mo kakushita
futari wa tsuchi ni kakushita

ushirometai kako kakushite kita hibi
hoho o tsutau kono omoi ni kaeru basho wa nakute

are kara dore dake sagashitemo mitsukaranai
ichido wa aisaretai
kanawanai yume no naka
hosoi yubi ni karamu shishuu
musekaeru tabi kurikaesu
"gomen nasai."

English: Cat's Cradle[1]
When I was a child I played alone
Tying strings, into a cat's cradle

"Stop it, it hurts."
"I'll listen to what you say."
"Please forgive me."
"Dad, mom..."

After dragging out a red color in a daze, the two remained hanging their heads in shame

Tying intestines, into a cat's cradle
Up until now I've done it very well, so
"Dad, mom, please praise me."

I hid the bruises
I hid the wounds
I hid them both in the dirt

Everyday came with hiding my guilty past
I have no place to return to with these feelings running down the cheek

Since then, no matter how much I search, I cannot find them
I want to be loved once
In a dream that won't come true
The stench of corpse entangles my slender fingers
I repeat every time I'm choking in sobs
"I'm sorry."
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Translation notes:
[1] The song title is written with different kanji meanings to spell out あやとり(ayatori), which means "cat's cradle". The first kanji 彩(read as "aya") means "color". The second kanji 虜(read as "tori") means "prisoner". So the title can also mean something like a "color prisoner, prisoner of color", but I'm sure "color" refers to the "red color" as mentioned in the lyrics. My interpretation is that the person is a prisoner who is colored in red from their guilty past.

AvelCain - 蘇-よみがえり- (Yomigaeri)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 蘇-よみがえり-
Death and rebirth.

余りに重過ぎた生命の軽視
余りに酷過ぎた天命の啓示

蘇れ蘇れ 古の魔術
蘇れ蘇れ 予期せぬ誤算
蘇れ蘇れ 禁忌の代価
蘇れ蘇れ

そう誰もが夢見て 想いを馳せた
今亡き貴方へ どうか愛してると

会いたいただそれだけ
罪を犯してた
会いたいただそれだけが理由で
この世に与えられた
たった一つだけ
決して蘇らない存在よ

蘇れ蘇れ 人間の定義
蘇れ蘇れ 還らぬ魂
蘇れ蘇れ 仮初の器
蘇れ蘇れ

そう誰もが死を見て 悲しみ知った
今亡き貴方へ どうか愛してると

月夜が綺麗だった
今も覚えてる?
真冬の星座を二人見上げた
そろそろお別れだね
あの日あの場所で
二人あの『月』見上げたいな

All death and rebirth.

Romaji: Yomigaeri
Death and rebirth.

amari ni omosugita seimei no keishi
amari ni hidosugita tenmei no keiji

yomigaere yomigaere  inishie no majutsu
yomigaere yomigaere  yokisenu gosan
yomigaere yomigaere  kinki no daika
yomigaere yomigaere

sou daremo ga yume mite  omoi o haseta
ima naki anata e  douka aishiteru to

aitai tada sore dake
tsumi o okashiteta
aitai tada sore dake ga riyuu de
kono yo ni ataerareta
tatta hitotsu dake
kesshite yomigaeranai mono yo

Death and rebirth.

yomigaere yomigaere  ningen no teigi
yomigaere yomigaere  kaeranu tamashii
yomigaere yomigaere  karisome no utsuwa
yomigaere yomigaere

Death and rebirth.

sou daremo ga shi o mite  kanashimi shitta
ima naki anata e  douka aishiteru to

tsukiyo ga kirei datta
ima mo oboeteru?
mafuyu no seiza o futari miageta
sorosoro owakare da ne
ano hi ano basho de
futari ano "tsuki" miagetai na

All death and rebirth.

English: Resurrection
Death and rebirth.

A much too heavy disregard of life
A much too cruel revelation of fate

Revive revive, ancient black magic
Revive revive, an unforeseen miscalculation
Revive revive, a forbidden price
Revive revive

Everyone dreams so and thinks of someone faraway
Please somehow, let me say I love you, even though you're gone now

I just simply want to see you
So I committed a sin
My only reason was because I want to see you
In this world I was given
Only one thing
An existence[1] which should never be revived

Revive revive, the definition of human
Revive revive, a soul that doesn't return
Revive revive, a temporary vessel
Revive revive

Everyone experiences death so and knows sadness
Please somehow, let me say I love you, even though you're gone now

The moonlit night was beautiful
Do you still remember even now?
We looked up at the midwinter constellation together
It's time to say farewell soon
On that day, and at that place
I want to look up at the "moon" together

All death and rebirth.
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Translations notes:
[1] Here karma wrote 存在(sonzai) which means "existence", but he sings もの(mono), which can mean person or thing. Just a slight nuance in words.

Sunday, July 17, 2016

AvelCain - 花一匁 (Hana Ichi Monme)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 花一匁
さぁ手と手を繋ぎましょう
放課後の校庭から響く声が突き刺さる
仲間外れは誰?

制服は赤く染まり
先生は見て見ぬ振り
青春は捨て置き去り
生寄なり死帰なり

あの子が欲しい
あの子じゃ分からん
相談しましょう
そうしましょう
あの子に決めた

花一匁
独り口遊む
夕日綺麗に映る帰り道は涙雨
花一匁
誰にも言えない
あの花に憧れた
『苛め踏まれたか弱き花』

争いは飢えを生んで
飢えは争いを生んだ
無関係に選ばれる
口減らしは誰?

あの子が欲しい
あの子じゃ分からん
相談しましょう
そうしましょう
あの子に決めた

買って嬉しい花一匁
負けて悔しい花一匁
あの子は籠の中

花一匁
この手離したら
二度と会えなくなるの
知ってたけど言えなかった
花一匁
今振り向いたら
余計悲しくなるの
『連れて行かれた幼き花』

Romaji: Hana Ichi Monme
saa te to te o tsunagimashou
houkago no koutei kara hibiku koe ga tsukisasaru
nakama hazure wa dare?

seifuku wa akaku somari
sensei wa mite minu furi
seishun wa sute okizari
seiki nari shiki nari

ano ko ga hoshii
ano ko ja wakaran
ano ko ga hoshii
ano ko ja wakaran
soudan shimashou
sou shimashou
ano ko ni kimeta

hana ichimonme  hana ichimonme
hitori kuchizusamu
yuuhi kirei ni utsuru kaerimichi wa namida ame
hana ichimonme  hana ichimonme
dare ni mo ienai
ano hana ni akogareta
"ijime fumareta kayowaki hana"

arasoi wa ue o unde
ue wa arasoi o unda
mukankei ni erabareru
kuchiberashi wa dare?

ano ko ga hoshii
ano ko ja wakaran
ano ko ga hoshii
ano ko ja wakaran
soudan shimashou
sou shimashou
ano ko ni kimeta

katte ureshii hana ichimonme
makete kuyashii hana ichimonme
katte ureshii hana ichimonme
makete kuyashii hana ichimonme
ano ko wa kago no naka

hana ichimonme  hana ichimonme
kono te hanashitara
nidoto aenaku naru no
shitteta kedo ienakatta
hana ichimonme  hana ichimonme
ima furimuitara
yokei kanashiku naru no
"tsurete ikareta osanaki hana"

katte ureshii hana ichimonme
makete kuyashii hana ichimonme
katte ureshii hana ichimonme
makete kuyashii hana ichimonme

English: Hana Ichi Monme
Come, let's hold each others hands
Echoing voices run through the schoolyard after school
Is there someone left out?

Our school uniforms become stained in red
The teacher pretends not to notice
We threw away our youth in desertion
It was life and death

We want that kid
We don't understand which kid you mean
Let's talk about it
Yes, lets
We've decided on that kid

Hana Ichi Monme
Humming all alone
A light rain reflects beautifully in the sunset on the way home
Hana Ichi Monme
I can't say it to anyone
I yearned for that flower
"A frail flower that was harassingly stepped on"

Our rivalry gave birth to hunger
Our hunger gave birth to rivalry
We'll be chosen by the outsider
But who will be given up?

We want that kid
We don't understand which kid you mean
Let's talk about it
Yes, lets
We've decided on that kid

We're so happy we won, Hana Ichi Monme
We're so upset we lost, Hana Ichi Monme
That kid is in a cage

Hana Ichi Monme
If we let go of this hand
We won't be able to see each other ever again
I knew, but I couldn't say it
Hana Ichi Monme
If we look back now
It will be extremely sad
"An infant flower that was taken away"
-------------------------
Translation Notes:
Hana Ichi Monme is a Japanese children's game somewhat similar to the game Red Rover played in the West. The literal translation means "a flower is one monme", in which a monme is a Japanese historical coin. In the game a group is split into two teams and both teams face each other in a parallel line. The children also sing a song as one team steps forward and the other steps backward, and vice versa. Lines from that song have been used in the lyrics and I put them in italics. This explains very well why bangyas at live shows hold each others hands and step forward and backward during parts when they sing "we want that kid".

AvelCain - 揺り籠 (Yurikago)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 揺り籠
『儚く咲いた百合の花優しく揺れて散り急いだ』
季節の中途切れた歌
続きが思い出せなくて

消えないように閉じ込めた貴方の記憶は
連れて行かないで

さよなら手を振った
私の生きる意味無くなったから
目を閉じ幸せなあの日に
あのね今すぐ帰るから
おやすみなさい

涙に滲む長い旅
届かない声独り歩き
朦朧の中流れ出した
命の行方鮮やかで

千切れそうな呼吸もあと少しだから貴方に会いたい

さよなら手を振った
私の生きる意味無くなったから
目を閉じ幸せなあの日に
あのね今すぐ帰るから
おやすみなさい

(貴方は私の生きる意味でした
どんなに辛いことも貴方となら乗り越えられる気がしました
どんなに辛い思い出も貴方と居た大切な時間でした
もう貴方には会えません
貴方の愛した百合の花が綺麗すぎて)

百合籠の中で抱き締めて眠れ
揺り籠の中で夢見て眠れ

さよなら手を振った
私の生きる意味無くなったから
『百合の花は散った自責の果てに』
もう泣かないよ
貴方が居るから

貴方だけ
愛してる

Romaji: Yurikago
"hakanaku saita yuri no hana yasashiku yurete chiriisoida"
kisetsu no naka togireta uta
tsudzuki ga omoidasenakute

kienai you ni tojikometa anata no kioku wa
tsurete ikanaide

sayonara te o futta
watashi no ikiru imi nakunatta kara
me o toji shiawase na ano hi ni
ano ne ima sugu kaeru kara
oyasumi nasai

namida ni nijimu nagai tabi
todokanai koe hitori aruki
mourou no naka nagaredashita
inochi no yukue azayaka de

chigiresou na kokyuu mo ato sukoshi dakara anata ni aitai

sayonara te o futta
watashi no ikiru imi nakunatta kara
me o toji shiawase na ano hi ni
ano ne ima sugu kaeru kara
oyasumi nasai

(anata wa watashi no ikiru imi deshita
donna ni tsurai koto mo anata to nara norikoerareru kigashimashita
donna ni tsurai omoide mo anata to ita taisetsu na jikan deshita
mou anata ni wa aemasen
anata no aishita yuri no hana ga kirei sugite)

yuri kago no naka de dakishimete nemure
yuri kago no naka de dakishimete nemure
yurikago no naka de yume mite nemure
yurikago no naka de yume mite nemure

sayonara te o futta
watashi no ikiru imi nakunatta kara
"yuri no hana wa chitta jiseki no hate ni"
mou nakanai yo
anata ga iru kara

anata dake
aishiteru

English: Cradle
"The lily flowers which bloomed fleetingly, swayed gently and dispersed quickly"
I can't remember the rest of the song
That was interrupted among the seasons

My memories of you that I've kept locked up from disappearing
Don't take them away with you

I waved my hand goodbye
Because I lost the meaning to live
I close my eyes to those happy days
Look here, I'll come back very soon
Goodnight

It's a long journey blurred in tears
I walk alone with my voice unable to reach you
A vivid outcome of my life
Flowed out in a haze

Just a little more and my breath seems to tear apart, that's why I want to see you

I waved my hand goodbye
Because I lost the meaning to live
I close my eyes to those happy days
Look here, I'll come back very soon
Goodnight

(You gave me meaning to live
No matter how much pain I was in, if I was with you I felt like I could overcome it
No matter how painful our memories were, being with you was a precious time
I won't be able to meet you anymore
The lily flowers that you loved were too pretty)

Sleeping and embracing in a cradle[1]
Sleeping and dreaming in a cradle

I waved a hand goodbye
Because I lost the meaning to live
"The lily flowers gathered at the end of my fallen self-condemnation"
I won't cry anymore
Because there's you

Only you
Are the one I love
----------------------
Translation Notes:
The sections in parentheses indicates the spoken area of the song. It was not included in the original lyrics so I transcribed them by ear and added them to each section of kanji/romaji/english. 
[1] In this line karma uses wordplay and writes out 揺り籠(yurikago), meaning "cradle", with the word for "lily" 百合(yuri), which then looks like 百合籠. I decided to keep the literal meaning and translated it as "cradle".

AvelCain - 懺悔、寡黙ナル君ニ… (Zange, kamoku naru kimi ni...)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: AvelCain
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 懺悔、寡黙ナル君ニ…
I confess to silent you.
I am sorry to have loved you.

隠れながら見ててあげる
始めから終わりまで
ごめんなさい大好きです

壊れてゆく大切も何もかも
今は罪の数を数えるように
繰り返す
あの日あの場所君に出会って
抑えきれなかった感情も
罪になるのか?

I confess to silent you.
I am sorry to have loved you.

どうせ僕を知らないでしょ?
憧れの美少女様
ごめんなさい愛してます

腐ってゆく綺麗も何もかも
今は身体の傷を増やすように
確かめる
君の幸せに僕は要りませんか?
僕の幸せには君が…
返事は無い

Romaji: Zange, kamoku naru kimi ni...
I confess to silent you.
I am sorry to have loved you.
I confess to silent you.
I am sorry to have loved you.

kakure nagara mitete ageru
hajime kara owari made
gomen nasai daisuki desu

kowareteyuku taisetsu mo nanimokamo
ima wa tsumi no kazu o kazoeru you ni
kurikaesu
ano hi ano basho kimi ni deatte
osaekirenakatta kanjou mo
tsumi ni naru no ka?

I confess to silent you.
I am sorry to have loved you.

douse boku o shiranai desho?
akogare no bishoujosama
gomen nasai aishitemasu

kusatteyuku kirei mo nanimokamo
ima wa karada no kizu o fuyasu you ni
tashikameru
kimi no shiawase ni boku wa irimasen ka?
boku no shiawase ni wa kimi ga...
henji wa nai

English: A Confession, To Silent You...
I confess to silent you.
I am sorry to have loved you.

I look at you while hiding
From the beginning to end
I'm sorry that I love you

All important things and everything breaks
I'll repeat my sins now so that
They can be counted
The place and day where I met you
And these feelings I couldn't suppress
Will they become sins?

I confess to silent you.
I am sorry to have loved you.

You probably don't know me anyway?
A longing beautiful girl
I'm sorry that I love you

All beauty and everything rots
I'll confirm the wounds on my body now so that
They will increase
Don't you need me for your own happiness?
For my own happiness you...
Have no answer

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

AvelCain - 蛇と姑獲鳥 (Hebi to Ubume)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 蛇と姑獲鳥
月は食われ儚くまだ見ぬあなたを想う
真夜中の静寂と腹の中の鼓動
愛しい

日は食われ悲しくまだ見ぬあなたと眠る
引き裂かれた望み
もうあなたに会えない

夜明けざわめく空に無言の殻は今涙の理由と埋まる歪な想い残し

身体を這う蜷局の痛みは無念の涙
あなたを呼び続けた
此処に怨念晴れず

夕暮れ染まる空は悲しみも知らずに空の揺り籠は孤独に赤子を待つ

ずっとあなたを待っていました
この胸の中泣きじゃくるあなたを永久の夢に抱き締める

Romaji: Hebi to Ubume
tsuki wa kuware hakanaku mada minu anata o omo'u
mayonaka no seijaku to hara no naka no kodou
itoshii

hi wa kuware kanashiku mada minu anata to nemuru
hikisakareta nozomi
mou anata ni aenai

yoake zawameku sora ni mugon no kara wa ima namida no
wake to umaru ibitsu na omoi nokoshi

karada o hau toguro no itami wa munen no namida
anata o yobi tsudzuketa
koko ni onnen harezu

yuugure somaru sora wa kanashimi mo shirazuni kara no
yurikago wa kodoku ni akago o matsu

zutto anata o matteimashita
kono mune no naka nakijakuru anata o towa no yume ni dakishimeru

English: The Snake and Ubume[1]
The moon is devoured fleetingly, and I think about you who I still haven't seen yet
The midnight's silence and a beat inside the womb
Darling

The day is devoured sadly, and I sleep with you who I still haven't seen yet
Hope was torn away
I'll no longer be able to see you

In the rustling sky of dawn, the silent shell is now buried with reason of tears and leftover distorted thoughts

The pain of a coil crawling around the body are tears of regret
I continued calling you
Without clearing up the grudge here

The sky dyed in dusk does not know sadness, an empty cradle waits for a baby in solitude

I waited for you all along
I will hold you, who is sobbing within this bosom, tightly in an eternal dream
------------------------
Translation Notes:
[1] Ubume is a type of yokai/ghost in Japanese folklore of a woman who died in childbirth. One translation of it includes "woman in late pregnancy". See wiki or this site for more info. The second link is especially informative and explains how when a pregnant woman dies she would be buried along with the unborn fetus still inside of her. Or other times the unborn fetus would be cut out of her and placed in her arms during burial. I think these two aspects of the story are relatable to the song.

AvelCain - 蛾 (Ga)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 蛾
強迫観念の渦に沈む私
腐ったままで飼い殺した

私より不幸になって
報われない愛

嫌われた嫌われた
嫌われたもう消えたい
嫌われた嫌われた
嫌われた嫌われた

劣弱意識の螺旋に堕ちる私
想ったままで押し殺した

私より不幸になって
報われない愛

嫌われた嫌われた
嫌われたもう消えたい
嫌われた嫌われた
嫌われた嫌い

飛べない飛べないよ
こんな羽見たくないよ
あの蝶々は綺麗に飛んでる
消えたい

『d』『i』『e』

『死にたい。』

自傷行為の繰り返しは日々の私
楽にさせて今殺して

私より不幸になって
報われない愛

私なんて
私なんて

飛べないよ飛べないよ
こんな羽見たくないよ
あの蝶々は綺麗に飛んでる
ありのままありのまま
そんな風に飛べたなら
屋上に行かなくて良かったのに

『d』『i』『e』

『死ね。』

Romaji: Ga
kyouhaku kannen no uzu ni shizumu watashi
kusatta mama de kaigoroshita

watashi yori fukou ni natte
mukuwarenai ai

kirawareta kirawareta
kirawareta mou kietai
kirawareta kirawareta
kirawareta kirawareta

retsujaku ishiki no rasen ni ochiru watashi
omotta mama de oshikoroshita

watashi yori fukou ni natte
mukuwarenai ai

kirawareta kirawareta
kirawareta mou kietai
kirawareta kirawareta
kirawareta kirai

tobenai tobenai yo
konna hane mitakunai yo
ano chouchou wa kirei ni tonderu
kietai

"d" "i" "e"

"shinitai."

jishou koui no kurikaeshi wa hibi no watashi
raku ni sasete ima koroshite

watashi yori fukou ni natte
mukuwarenai ai

watashi nante
watashi nante

tobenai yo tobenai yo
konna hane mitakunai yo
ano chouchou wa kirei ni tonderu
ari no mama ari no mama
sonna fuu ni tobeta nara
okujou ni ikanakute yokatta noni

"d" "i" "e"

"shine."

English: Moth 
Sinking into a vortex of obsession
I kept you until you rotted and died

Become more unhappy than me
Unrequited love

I was hated, I was hated
I was hated, I want to disappear already
I was hated, I was hated
I was hated, I was hated

Falling into a spiral of imperfection
I crushed you to death left in thought

Become more unhappy than me
Unrequited love

I was hated, I was hated
I was hated, I want to disappear already
I was hated, I was hated
I was hated, I hate it

I can't fly, I can't fly
I don't want to see these kinds of wings
That butterfly is flying beautifully
I want to disappear

"d" "i" "e"

"I want to die."

I inflict self-harm repeatedly everyday
Let me be at ease and kill me now

Become more unhappy than me
Unrequited love

Someone like me
Someone like me

I can't fly, I can't fly
I don't want to see these kinds of wings
That butterfly is flying beautifully
Things will be what they will be
If I could fly like that
I would not have gone to the rooftop

"d" "i" "e"

"Die."
-------------------
Translation notes:
Just my own thoughts, but I think the butterfly metaphorically refers to the speaker's unrequited love. And the speaker is the moth on the other hand. I say "speaker" because I read somewhere that karma's lyrics are written in the perspective of a girl, so these are not necessarily karma's own feelings. Also, the lyrics do not directly say "you" anywhere in the song, but I assume that the person the speaker felt hatred and jealousy towards was her "unrequited love", who was more perfect and beautiful than her and made her feel imperfect.

AvelCain - 御手紙 (Otegami)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji: peffy

Kanji: 御手紙
憂つくしく
意識へと葬の夢
奏でる言の葉達

鬱くしく
意識へと葬の夢
奏でる言の葉達

今更は過去の傷
貴方は数えず滅ぼさずに

今然れど深い傷
貴方に差し出す哀の知らせ

愛しさも哀しさも
初めて知る感情
嗚呼

届かないの?
言の葉達 枯れ行くの
私達 離れ行くのよ
最初で最後の人
だからほら最愛を綴ったの

美しく
意識へと葬の夢
奏でる言の葉達

美しく
意識へと葬の夢
奏でる言の葉達

御返事を待つ私
最後の御手紙 書く

宛先の無い私
涙 滲む

届かないの?
言の葉達 枯れ行くの
私達 離れ行くのよ
最初で最後の人
だからほら最哀を綴ったのも貴方だけよ

拝啓
 貴方様。降り積もった御手紙と一緒にこの私を灰にまで燃やしてください。
                                  敬具

Romaji: Otegami
utsukushiku
ishiki e to sou no yume
kanaderu kotonohatachi

utsukushiku
ishiki e to sou no yume
kanaderu kotonohatachi

imasara wa kako no kizu
anata wa kazoezu horobosazuni

ima saredo fukai kizu
anata ni sashidasu ai no shirase

itoshisa mo kanashisa mo
hajimete shiru kanjou
aa

todokanai no?
kotonohatachi  kareyuku no
watashitachi  kareyuku no yo
saisho de saigo no hito
dakara hora saiai o tsudzutta no

utsukushiku
ishiki e to sou no yume
kanaderu kotonohatachi

utsukushiku
ishiki e to sou no yume
kanaderu kotonohatachi

ohenji o matsu watashi
saigo no otegami  kaku

atesaki no nai watashi
namida  nijimu

todokanai no?
kotonohatachi  kareyuku no
watashitachi  kareyuku no yo
saisho de saigo no hito
dakara  hora saiai o tsudzutta no mo anata dake yo

anata sama. furitsumotta otegami to
  issho ni kono watashi o hai ni made moyashite kudasai.

NOTES:
離れ行く/hanareyuku -> 枯れ行く/kareyuku

English: Letter
Beautifully[1]
A burial dream heads towards consciousness
These words are playing

Beautifully[2]
A burial dream heads towards consciousness
These words are playing

This very moment is already wounds of the past
Without you counting them, or destroying them

Even so now, they're deep wounds
A notice of grief[3] sends your way

The emotions I knew for the first time
Were lovingness, as well as sadness
Ah

Does it not reach you?
These words are withering away
We're drifting away
You're the first and last person
That's why, see, I spelled out my beloved

Beautifully
A burial dream heads towards consciousness
These words are playing

Beautifully
A burial dream heads towards consciousness
These words are playing

I'll write a final letter
As I am waiting for a reply

My tears well up
As I have no address

Does it not reach you?
These words are withering away
We're drifting away
You're the first and last person
That's why, see, I also spelled out grief only for you

Dear
   You[4]. Please burn these piled up letters together with me to ashes.
                                                                           Yours truly
------------------------
Translation Notes:
[1] In this line karma sings 美しく(utsukushiku), but uses the kanji reading of 憂(u) to spell it out. The kanji 憂 can mean grief and melancholy, but I kept the literal "utsukushiku" meaning and translated it as "beautifully".
[2] Same as [1], karma uses the kanji reading of 鬱(utsu) to spell out "utsukushiku". The kanji 鬱 means depression. Just a side note, but if you put 憂 and 鬱 together you get 憂鬱(yuutsu), which basically means depression, again. And this is why learning kanji can be a mess because there are so many out there that have similar meanings and so many that can be poetically used to spell out different words like karma did in these lyrics.
[3] The word used here 哀(ai), meaning grief, is most likely a play on 愛(ai), meaning love, as they both have the same reading/pronunciation. karma uses these interchangeably in other areas of the song.
[4] karma uses 様(sama) here, which adds politeness and elevates the status of the person directed. It is very difficult to translate or convey in English.

Friday, July 8, 2016

AvelCain - BELIEVE

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji: peffy

Kanji: BELIEVE
暗い海の底
君は僕がどんな声なのか知らない

どんなに近くに居ても
きっと不安は襲いに来る

どんなに遠くに居ても
きっと心は通じ合うだろう

偏見や劣等の中
閉ざした心の扉
同情や興味なんかじゃない

愛していると君に伝えたい
僕の声が聞けなくても
愛していると君に言われたい
本当は聴きたい

どんなに近くに居ても
きっと心の傷が痛む

どんなに遠くに居ても
きっと二人なら見つめ合うだろう

どんな時も想い出す

愛していると君に伝えたい
僕の声が聞けなくても
愛していると君に言われたい
本当は聴きたい
信じているよ君の傍に居る
僕の事も信じて欲しい
信じているよ君が好きだから
心に響いて
心に聴こえて

『愛している。』

Romaji: BELIEVE
kurai umi no soko
kimi wa boku ga donna koe nanoka shiranai

donna ni chikaku ni itemo
kitto fuan wa osoi ni kuru

donna ni tooku ni itemo
kitto kokoro wa tsuujiau darou

henken ya rettou no naka
tozashita kokoro no tobira
doujou ya kyoumi nanka janai

aishiteiru to kimi ni tsutaetai
boku no koe ga kikenakutemo
aishiteiru to kimi ni iwaretai
hontou wa kikitai

donna ni chikaku ni itemo
kitto kokoro no kizu ga itamu

donna ni tooku ni itemo
kitto futari nara mitsumeau darou

donna toki mo omoidasu
donna toki mo omoidasu
donna toki mo omoidasu

aishiteiru to kimi ni tsutaetai
boku no koe ga kikenakutemo
aishiteiru to kimi ni iwaretai
hontou wa kikitai
shinjiteiru yo kimi no soba ni iru
boku no koto mo shinjite hoshii
shinjiteiru yo kimi ga suki dakara
kokoro ni hibiite
kokoro ni kikoete

"aishiteiru."

English: BELIEVE
At the bottom of the dark sea
You are unaware of what kind of voice I have

No matter how close you are
Surely, anxiety will come striking

No matter how far you are
Surely, our hearts will understand each other

Among prejudice or inferiority
A door of a closed mind
It's nothing about sympathy or interest

I want to tell you that I love you
Even if you can't hear my voice
I want you to tell me that you love me
I truly want to hear it

No matter how close you are
Surely, our emotional scars will ache

No matter how far you are
Surely, if it's the two of us, we'll gaze at each other

No matter the circumstances, I remember

I want to tell you that I love you
Even if you can't hear my voice
I want you to tell me that you love me
I truly want to hear it
I believe in you, I will be by your side
I want you to believe in me too
I believe in you, because I like you
Echoing in my heart
Audible in my heart

"I love you."

AvelCain - 赫い部屋 (Akai heya)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 赫い部屋
綺麗ナ白イ壁ニ痛ク飛ンダ
血塗レノ私ヲ見テ…

私ノ白イ手首ニ悲シク泣ク
赤イ赤イ血ノ結末…

Romaji: Akai heya
KIREI NA SHIROI KABE NI ITAKU TONDA
CHIMAMIRE NO WATASHI O MITE...

WATASHI NO SHIROI TEKUBI NI KANASHIKU NAKU
AKAI AKAI CHI NO KETSUMATSU...

English: Red Room
I FLEW PAINFULLY TO THE BEAUTIFUL WHITE WALL
LOOK AT ME ALL BLOODSTAINED...

I CRY SADLY AT MY PALE WRISTS
THE CONCLUSION OF RED RED BLOOD...
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Translation notes:
In the original lyrics karma writes in katakana (aside from the kanji). If you're not familiar with the Japanese language, hiragana is the writing system used for native words while katakana is used for foreign and borrowed words. In addition, katakana is also used as a way of italicizing or giving emphasis on words. Therefore, as peffy did with the romaji, translating the lyrics in all caps lock was an appropriate way of showing this.

AvelCain - 手首の切り方 (Tekubi no kirikata)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 手首の切り方
Cut myself.
痛い

Please tell me the meaning of my life.
My heart is so crushed.
How to cut a wrist.
The end of blood.

独りぼっちで生きる意味探して彷徨って手首を開く

嫌い
手首切って溢れ出す痛みの色はとても綺麗な赤死にたい
痛い
大嫌いな自分も酷い記憶も全部消したい助けて
言葉に出来ない想い溢れて

手首に映るもう一人の私
心が潰れてしまう前に

嫌い
溢れ出して止まらない痛みの色はとても汚い赤死にたい
痛い
血に染まる包帯も震える声も全部気付いて助けて
今すぐ優しさ過剰摂取させて

手首の中に生きる意味なんて無くてでも切り続けた死にたい
傷の数だけ自分が嫌い
傷の数だけ私を見て欲しい助けて
どれだけの涙で心は癒えるの?

Want to die.

Romaji: Tekubi no kirikata
Cut myself.
itai

Please tell me the meaning of my life.
My heart is so crushed.
How to cut a wrist.
The end of blood.

hitoribocchi de ikiru imi sagashite samayotte tekubi o hiraku

kirai
tekubi kitte afuredasu itami no iro wa totemo kirei na aka shinitai
itai
daikirai na jibun mo hidoi kioku mo zenbu keshitai tasukete
kotoba ni dekinai omoi afurete

Please tell me the meaning of my life.
My heart is so crushed.
How to cut a wrist.
The end of blood.

tekubi ni utsuru mou hitori no watashi
kokoro ga tsuburete shimau mae ni

kirai
afuredashite tomaranai itami no iro wa totemo kitanai aka shinitai
itai
chi ni somaru houtai mo furueru koe mo zenbu kidzuite tasukete
ima sugu yasashisa kajou sesshu sasete

tekubi no naka ni ikiru imi nante nakute demo kiri tsudzuketa shinitai
kizu no kazu dake jibun ga kirai
kizu no kazu dake watashi o mite hoshii tasukete
dore dake no namida de kokoro wa ieru no?

Want to die.

English: How To Cut Wrists
Cut myself.
Painful

Please tell me the meaning of my life.
My heart is so crushed.
How to cut a wrist.
The end of blood.

Being alone I searched for the meaning of life, and wandering about I began to open my wrists

Hate
Cutting my wrists the pain that flows out is a very beautiful red color, I want to die
Painful
I want to erase my loathsome self and my dreadful memories completely, save me
These feelings that cannot be expressed are overflowing

Before my heart collapses
Another me reflects onto my wrists

Hate
The pain that flows out continuously is a very filthy red, I want to die
Painful
Notice everything about the bandages stained in blood and my trembling voice, save me
Let me take a painless overdose right now

There is nothing meaningful like life within the wrists, but I continued cutting, I want to die
With only the number of cuts, I hate myself
With only the number of cuts, I want you to look at me, save me
Just how many tears can heal the heart?

Want to die.

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

AvelCain - 籠目歌ノ呪縛 (Kagomeuta no jubaku)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: AvelCain
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 籠目歌ノ呪縛
夕暮れに鳥が鳴く遠い遠い昔の記憶
籠目歌遊んでたあの頃へは帰れぬまま
置き去りの想いが僕を縛る

君が居ない広がるだけの空白に
僕は独り赤を添えて

君が好きだった方へ
また会いましょう

籠の中で笑う君に届かない
夜明けの晩に隠れて消えて滲んだのは僕の首…

さよなら

Romaji: Kagomeuta no jubaku
yuugure ni tori ga naku tooi tooi mukashi no kioku
kagomeuta asondeta ano koro e wa kaerenu mama
okizari no omoi ga boku o shibaru

kimi ga inai hirogaru dake no kuuhaku ni
boku wa hitori aka o soete

kimi ga suki datta hou e
mata aimashou

kago no naka de warau kimi ni todokanai
yoake no ban ni kakurete kiete nijinda no wa boku no kubi...

sayonara

English: The Cursed Song of Kagome
A far distant memory where a bird sings at dusk
Unable to return to the time we played the song of Kagome[1]
These feelings we left behind bind me

In the emptiness where the absence of you only spreads
I embellish it in red alone

Let's meet again
To the place where you liked

I cannot reach you who is laughing inside a cage
What hid away and revealed itself in the evening of dawn was my neck...[2]

Goodbye
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Translation notes:
[1] The song of Kagome is a reference to the chant sang in "Kagome Kagome", which is a Japanese children's game. See wiki for more info.
[2] I had a bit of trouble translating this line because of the word 滲む(nijimu) which has various meanings. I initially thought that it meant "to blur", but it didn't make much sense in the translation so I then figured out that one other definition, "to reveal itself", made the most sense. With this translation it's easier to understand that Karma is referring to the swinging motion of himself hanging, where the neck hides and reveals itself in the shadows.
edit: Thanks to hiroki for the suggestion, 滲む can also mean "to be soaked" (ex. in blood) which also works well in this context. In addition to this, 首(kubi) literally meaning "neck" can also mean "a decapitated head" or "cut off neck". Thus, if you put these together you also get the notion that what hid away and was soaked (in blood) was his cut off neck.

AvelCain - 自責 (Jiseki)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 自責
ねぇ貴方のこと
ずっと想ってるから
嗚呼 盲目 恋愛

ねぇ私のこと
ずっと離さないでね
嗚呼 依存 恋愛

だけど どうして
心離れて
自分が嫌い
あのね私自信が無くてでも貴方が好きで

ごめんねごめんね
私のこと嫌いだよね
もう分かってるけど
辛くて辛くて
私を独りにしないで
涙が止まらない

ねぇこんな私
もう死ねばいいのに
嗚呼 情緒不安定

死にたい 助けて
心潰れて
自分が嫌い
あのね私貴方のことを今でも愛してる

ごめんねごめんね
全部私のせいだよね
もう分かってるけど
辛くて辛くて
ただ貴方が居てくれたら
涙が止まらない

最後に聞いてよ
ずっとずっと忘れないよ
離れたくないよ
寂しい苦しい
本当は幸せになりたい
駄目かな…

生きててごめんね
私の居場所は何処だろう
もしも生まれ変われたら
嗚呼 貴方とずっと一緒に居させて

Romaji: Jiseki
nee anata no koto
zutto omotteru kara
aa  moumoku  ren'ai

nee watashi no koto
zutto hanasanaide ne
aa  izon  ren'ai

dakedo  doushite
kokoro hanarete
jibun ga kirai
ano ne watashi jishin ga nakute demo anata ga suki de

gomen ne gomen ne
watashi no koto kirai da yo ne
mou wakatteru kedo
tsurakute tsurakute
watashi o hitori ni shinaide
namida ga tomaranai

nee konna watashi
mou shineba ii noni
aa  joucho fuantei

shinitai  tasukete
kokoro tsuburete
jibun ga kirai
ano ne watashi anata no koto o ima demo aishiteru

gomen ne gomen ne
zenbu watashi no sei da yo ne
mou wakatteru kedo
tsurakute tsurakute
tada anata ga ite kuretara
namida ga tomaranai

saigo ni kiite yo
zutto zutto wasurenai yo
hanaretakunai yo
sabishii kurushii
hontou wa shiawase ni naritai
dame kana...

ikitete gomen ne
watashi no ibasho wa doko darou
moshimo umarekawaretara
aa  anata to zutto issho ni isasete

English: Self-Condemnation
Hey, I'm always
thinking about you
Oh, blind love

Hey, so please don't ever
Let go of me
Oh, dependent love

But, why
Did I lose myself
and hate myself
You see, I don't have any confidence but I like you

I'm sorry I'm sorry
You must hate me, right?
But I already know that
It's painful and painful
Don't leave me alone
I can't stop crying

Hey, someone like me
Should die already
Oh, emotional instability

I want to die, save me
Crushing my heart
I hate myself
You see, I still love you even now

I'm sorry I'm sorry
It's all my fault, right?
But I already know that
It's painful and painful
If only you'd be here for me
I can't stop crying

Please listen to the end
Never ever forget
I don't want to be apart
It's lonely and painful
The truth is I want to be happy
But it's probably useless...

I'm sorry for being alive
I wonder if there's a place where I belong
If I could be reborn
Oh, please let me be together with you forever

AvelCain - 囁 (Sasayaki)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 囁
あの日の声があの日の言葉が
脳に埋め込まれて離れない
あの日の傷があの日の景色が
脳に埋め込まれて離れない

どうしようもなくソレが怖くて
どうしようもなくアレが悲しくて
どうしようもなくソレが辛くて
どうしようもなくアレが出来ない

あの日の夢があの日の希望が
脳から引き摺り出された…

Romaji: Sasayaki
ano hi no koe ga ano hi no kotoba ga
nou ni umekomarete hanarenai
ano hi no kizu ga ano hi no keshiki ga
nou ni umekomarete hanarenai

doushiyou mo naku SORE ga kowakute
doushiyou mo naku ARE ga kanashikute
doushiyou mo naku SORE ga tsurakute
doushiyou mo naku ARE ga dekinai

ano hi no yume ga ano hi no kibou ga
nou kara hikizuri dasareta...

doushiyou mo naku SORE ga kowakute
doushiyou mo naku ARE ga kanashikute
doushiyou mo naku SORE ga tsurakute
doushiyou mo naku ARE ga dekinai

English: Whispers
The voice from that day, the words from that day
Are buried into my brain and won't go away
The wounds from that day, the sight from that day
Are buried into my brain and won't go away

Helplessly, I was scared of IT
Helplessly, I was sad about IT
Helplessly, I was hurt by IT
Helplessly, I cannot do IT

The dream from that day, the hope from that day
Was dragged out from my brain