AvelCain - 彩虜-あやとり- (Ayatori)

Lyrics: 業-karma-
Music: eve
Kanji/romaji source: peffy

Kanji: 彩虜-あやとり-
子供の頃に独り遊んだ
紐を結び　あやとり

『やめて痛いよ。』
『言う事聞くよ。』
『お願い許して。』
『パパ、ママ…』

赤い彩りを夢中で引き摺り出してからは俯いたままの二人が居て

腸を結び　あやとり
今までで一番上手に出来たから
『パパ、ママ、褒めて下さい。』

痣を隠した
傷も隠した
二人は土に隠した

後ろめたい過去隠して来た日々
頬を伝うこの想いに帰る場所は無くて

あれからどれだけ探しても見つからない
一度は愛されたい
叶わない夢の中
細い指に絡む死臭
噎せ返る度繰り返す
『ごめんなさい。』

Romaji: Ayatori
kodomo no koro ni hitori asonda
himo o musubi  ayatori

"yamete itai yo."
"iu koto kiku yo."
"onegai yurushite."
"PAPA, MAMA..."

akai irodori o muchuu de hikizuri dashite kara wa
  utsumuita mama no futari ga ite

harawata o musubi  ayatori
ima made de ichiban jouzu ni dekita kara
"PAPA, MAMA, homete kudasai."

aza o kakushita
kizu mo kakushita
futari wa tsuchi ni kakushita

ushirometai kako kakushite kita hibi
hoho o tsutau kono omoi ni kaeru basho wa nakute

are kara dore dake sagashitemo mitsukaranai
ichido wa aisaretai
kanawanai yume no naka
hosoi yubi ni karamu shishuu
musekaeru tabi kurikaesu
"gomen nasai."

English: Cat's Cradle[1]
When I was a child I played alone
Tying strings, into a cat's cradle

"Stop it, it hurts."
"I'll listen to what you say."
"Please forgive me."
"Dad, mom..."

After dragging out a red color in a daze, the two remained hanging their heads in shame

Tying intestines, into a cat's cradle
Up until now I've done it very well, so
"Dad, mom, please praise me."

I hid the bruises
I hid the wounds
I hid them both in the dirt

Everyday came with hiding my guilty past
I have no place to return to with these feelings running down the cheek

Since then, no matter how much I search, I cannot find them
I want to be loved once
In a dream that won't come true
The stench of corpse entangles my slender fingers
I repeat every time I'm choking in sobs
"I'm sorry."
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Translation notes:
[1] The song title is written with different kanji meanings to spell out あやとり(ayatori), which means "cat's cradle". The first kanji 彩(read as "aya") means "color". The second kanji 虜(read as "tori") means "prisoner". So the title can also mean something like a "color prisoner, prisoner of color", but I'm sure "color" refers to the "red color" as mentioned in the lyrics. My interpretation is that the person is a prisoner who is colored in red from their guilty past.